How I Feel
I've been feeling a bit
down recently and I'm not sure to exactly why. I think there are multiple
factors and I just want to express how stuff make me feel . My intention is not
to upset anyone and no I'm not depressed or anything similar, it's a mini rant
kinda thing ya know?
I like others opinions when
I ask them , maybe how my hair looks or something. But what irritates me is
when unwanted opinions are just thrown out, even from the opposite sex. I may
not be the supermodel you see in magazines , I am me. You just need to stick
that in your head that you comparing me to others won't change me, it just
makes my self-esteem and confidence falter a bit. You may not know what stupid
stuff you say to one other might not affect them on the outside but inside it
kills. I personally ignore most comments but when they come at full force, it's
hard to. This paragraph it both to you reading this and to me as well, that you
need to forget what others say and don't let it affect you or make you do stuff
you wouldn't dream of any other day.
When friends go away it is
like a stab in my heart. Not the silly things when you fight and katti but the unknown reason they just
float away from you. It makes me feel guilty that I've done something wrong ,
seeing them closer with others and remember how we used to be like that. I
appreciate that they may be experimenting with other people and weaving in and
out , however I hate the fact that they almost destroy our relationship. To
friends who may be reading this- I want you back.
I've been doing this a lot
lately and really, I need to stop. The cover up with the watery smile and
"Yeah I'm okay", is difficult to portray and I just wish people, especially
closer friends would be able to see through that and nag me till I tell them
what's wrong. It's usually when I'm hurt by someone's attitude towards me and I'm
not one to go straight up and smack that bitch. I have outbursts yeah- doesn't
everyone. People need to stop judging the cover and see what's inside first. I
like people getting close to me but I hate people going further away from me.
Song Update♥
This one was short and
sweet, don't worry guys it's just a rough week and I'm all better now. I just
needed to reflect and review so I did. Also, I need a response to my posts to
be sure you peeps are reading. My buttercupy-lovlie-little-sugar-coated-candies,
how are you enjoying this February? Any plans for Valentines' day? If not you're welcome to my house to snuggle up with butterscotch ice-cream and a sad film- I'm celebrating being single,
relish it now because next year you may be on one of those tacky candle-light
dinners(not that I have an objection).I may even go to McDonalds, Burger King,
Subway or KFC, to proclaim my love to food, unfortunately I don't have a Nandos
close by so we'll see.
Thanks. Bye bye xx
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